EXIsT

do you miss the kisses unsolid forms or years or broken sweat and tears i fear for..your safety? i prayed for space and gravity to surround you and grab you like one of those hugs at the airports i never want to let you go sorts something laps yet there is no ocean just ground up stones and what not to create that grey atmosphere im still here and youre still there as we say in our dreams its possible and yeh webs are sticky get caught up and see through lost fingers still alive and dancing though
space for self collection the garbage kids dont see us as junk rifle through it pay attention i imagine your laugh and your cries
i am on the top of the mountain for the first time im afraid though because its time for me to let go im leaving also
back to australia too soon then a swag and a backpack will be my bedroom

sufferance

it all doesnt matter now
if we grow wings or not
tortured by these images
of a life lost
awakened desires
of naked fires
night time
i dream of girls
the days are hot

speak slowly
admire every lingering moment
dark hair all over
it doesnt matter what my name is
in every language we are alone, together
craving daily doses
at LEAST
if not more

separated lips and legs
shuddered movements
silent caress
ignore the masses
find our way up eachothers dresses
noiseless
nothing else matters
and then silence
the dawn gives birth
to explosions in my eyes
mountains and still air
and im still here
and you're still there

separated lips and legs
to love & dream & fight
is life lived
it doesnt matter now
im not scared
all that matters is what we share

A breath of fresh air

I have been so blind
blind to love & bound to fate
we stay up late
& too soon its too early
& time to sleep
so silently
after the smoke has cleared away
& the bubbles have resided
& the leaves stir drowsily
i watch the colours merge
pushed up from their slumbers
urged in secret stealth

how black becomes blue
& blue becomes grey
how pale pastels can seem
when everything is shrouded in the mountains veil
pink becomes orange
orange becomes sky
& no words from our language
could describe how sweetly the birds cry
& if i had a tear to wipe from my eye
i'd say
"listen boys,
how this moment has changed our lives"
& i'd hope they say "yes"
it doesnt matter what seems to matter
the sunrise knows best
& this beating in my chest
i'll play along like i know best
& capture this memory
to plant in my dreams when i rest
& when i awaken
may it bring a surprise
a breath of fresh air
to these gorgeous boy's lives
& if i had a tear to wipe from my eye
it would be for the way the birds sing
when i cry

for michael & yuray & me

Bloody Mary

for the first of it
i ignored him
i ignored her
and i ignored them
then i loosened up
sweltering
sandals slapping on hot skin
i start sweating
sunsets are caught inbetween totem poles of electricity
fire
and people walking
theres a space and distance around every single second
theres an ultimate meaning to every word uttered
each swaying movement and lapping wave
is another melody that sets and plays
we dance around and jump over medusa
we see through the poison on offer
we drink ice cold juice
it hurts
night falls on top of the pink and grey backdrop
blue or black
or just everything all added up
words are lost and instead we trace footprints
spell out congrats of days passed since life's beginings
sighs of solitude and peace
rest in ease on our salty backs
flickers of love like falling stars
only if you catch it..

Two hours

hands drag in a drunken stance
swolen thoughts are taut
i miss dancing
irreverseable motions
obsessive opressed solutions
salutations to the night walker
terror stalks the youngest daughter
back folds like creased paper
the same position over
i miss perfection
i am too sober
beginning to see the end
first breaths and misfits
rough to look at and kiss
absolution and a grave knot in the stomach
six minutes and two hours
19 years and not enough showers
innocence and cleanliness
are forgetton lyrics with a sombre riff