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i can barely stand
the heat surges through me
pinpricks of pain
fire & lightning bolts
i grip my head in my hands
keep it under control
i want to start weeping
instead swaying drunkenly
must look like a junkie
cold sweat breaks out on me
i stink with disease
bending more and more at the knees
white light again
fizzing
smacked in the brain
i want to run with the wind
pour water on my body
where does this pain come from?
too long with chemicals
drug-riddled shell casts off the weight of the world
underneath, a little girl.