Another Stone in the Wall

i have an alarmingly increased lack of vocabulary
my dialect has become impregnated with peace & rest
i find it hard now to share speech with our species

at first when i left i was terrified, i'll let you know
i cried as soon as i walked through those gates
wracked with pain from head to toe
then all thoughts of everything once known melted from my mind
i was on my way
on my own
for the first time

this world is tragic and beautiful like all great love stories
i feel these lonesome journeys of mine are like a book
but there are no words yet
i realised this & have begun writing my own destiny in scribble with shaking hands & bare foot

i have floated in dead seas that have stung me for what seemed like an eternity
i have walked the mountains surrounding the place of the pre-beginnig of our concept of time
i have milked goats and felt sick and silly and sordid
then eaten the cheese from that same milk with glee & not once felt boredom
i have watched celebrations of the independance of a land filled with patriotiscm, religion & suspicion
i have seen people so terrorised there was no surprise in their eyes at the suicide of a young boy with a wish to die in cluttered submission
i have run for my life from screams & sirens & rubble, knowing i was in real trouble
i have turned back shaking, determined to witness a nation breaking
i have danced in the mediterranean and smoked nargila with soldiers of young ages
i have even wailed in the old city & stuck a prayer in a crack in the western wall
there were enough prayers there to fill the pages of the worlds biggest bible
i prayed for protection and guidance of us all
for mother earth to be respected & to not yet fall
because we, her children, are fighting & causing the destruction of the world

i have been..
blessed
repressed
fully dressed
a guest
depressed
sandwiched
anguished
lavished
ravaged
savage
lost
taken advantage of
sobbed
robbed
not yet snogged
hugged
lugged
rubbed
shrugged
died and woken up..

which leads me to this exact moment
& i'll own it till my time stops