the silver fox
you show me things i once knew
and we sing them to the skies now
im nervous and ecstatic and excited
delighted to have you in my life
delirious to be living life
we're alive and im in love
with all of the above
and i was running away from the water.. there was nowhere to go, just sand and the great mass perpetually rising behind me.. always just about to crash on top of me, cover me, crush my small being out of existence indefinately..
i wake up and its dark but there are birds and noises that stir memories that are tear stained and blurred its like an excavation of my words and thoughts tipped out for all to walk on i feel suffocated and squashed and that i've lost a vital part in what it means to go on i cant love for im afraid to let go i've lost more than my eyes and my voice i've lost you i can drag myself up though and walk across desert valleys so white in the sun its like snow to an old ruined castle made of stone on my own and inside are the animals that hide and a little turtle friend of mine the only soul here i've met who can take their time im rushed into waking up prodded and asked whats wrong followed and scrutinised and told half lies to put cloth over my eyes but i already realise what is going on here and i've already left all my doubts worry and fear im becoming like you and you're scared this is true so you hurry to send me off into the oceans blue not rubbish strewn with body parts and kids with guns half their size and that hollow sad look that rots out their eyes are we still all human here or do you make that distinction fed by the governments lies and i've barely even cried im becoming like them its in my blood anyway to be cold to my own friends to have armour and strength even when i just want it to end just a cuddle from a loved one or a love song in the backround and i've found that in time we can adapt to anything and if this is a gift of mine i'd prefer it stay hidden im learning new languages but poetry sounds harsh with it i feel my knowledge has been abused a bit im bruised and have ached for weeks im leaking pure lust here but like this desert land it turns to dust and disapears like the salty sand it soaks up all my escaping tears did he poison me or is that you're own fear? |
semi-acoustic vibrations appear on the roads like sweltering heat sights on outback stations i wake up and find myself rolling through stone mountains trembling under a sun that stirs movement & shaking determined women beat their clothing and continue their early morning baking bagels are sold on death toll highways with high fives and slight waves in the middle of the desert, two young boys in black suits play with their curls like toys in a silent pursuit of the sea of life a retreat for the weary feet a dead sea where one is cleansed upon entry this is my destination ravenous cravings of this purity have been plagueing my thoughts for it seems like centuries and like a centipede, on many legs i slide into the sea and feel a healing deep inside of me salty and stinging my thighs and in-between i lie back looking above at a cloudy grey sky my hands are behind my head and i'm floating i look up and within my sight i am the only creature here alive here i feel me again here mother earth is my friend and above and around me, father plays and laughs with me |